What Was vs. What Is

"When you love someone, let them go. If they come back to you, they were always yours."

Q: HOW? How do you just let go?

A: Stop dwelling on what was. That is over. Start concentrating on what is. You cannot relive the past, you cannot change the past. You will fail everytime. For if you try, you will waste your present and ultimately your future.

What was:

- You used to come up behind me as I was washing the dishes, and just hold me... for no other reason than just to feel my warmth.

- I used to lay my head in your lap, both of us knowing I would eventually fall asleep before the movie had run its course.

- You used to look into my eyes when you told me you loved me... I could almost see right through you.

- I used to laugh as you turned your hat sideways and began to rap the most ridiculous lyrics to me while we were traveling from here to there.

- You used to wrap your right arm around me as my head lay on your chest, as if it almost belonged there.

- I used to get in the shower with you,

- You used to hold me until the water became warm.

- I used to have a sense of stability.

- You used to believe in me.

- I used to know that this would never happen.

- You used to care.

- I used to feel whole, complete.

- You used to make me feel that way.

What is:

- You no longer are in love with me. No longer is it me imagining it. This has become your truth, my truth, our truth.

- I no longer want to need you, no longer want to love you. Unfortunately, my heart doesn't always listen to what my head has to say.

- You gave up on me.

- I'm trying to give up on us.

Hope is not reality. Reality is the air we are breathing in at this very moment, while hope is the air we believe we will breathe in our next.

Love is not one-sided. Love is an entitety all its own and can only be created by two willing participants. All we have now is broken peices to a mirror that reflects who we used to be, what we used to have.

-- Thank you, Pamela for this inspiration.