Fade Away

I have bled myself dry.
Every emotion you wanted, you got.
Every change you needed, you saw.

The frustration has ended. It has sunk in that I mean nothing to you anymore. I didn't want to believe that at first. I wanted to believe it was just lost somewhere within the confines of your battered heart.

I fought. I fought hard. I screamed, I cried, I begged, I pleaded, I changed, I grew, I apologized, I loved, I opened, I felt, I appreciated, I saw, I believed.

The chaotic never-ending thought process of unanswerable questions is finally coming to a hault. All hope is beginning to fade, the burning passion I have inside me for you has begun to extinguish.

Broken promises have now been replaced with reassurance, that no, you won't be coming home. Home to me. Home to our family. Home to the love, that apparently only I share.

I took a risk. Allowing myself to feel vulnerable, raw emotions. A risk that I do not regret, as I am proud to say I fought for what I loved; for what I love.

I told you everything that I could not tell you before. I shared with you the most inner lining of my soul, in hopes that it would be worth it in the end. And as the end draws near, was it worth it? Probably not. Do I regret it? No.

As the darkness of your lost love consumes me, in the distance there is only a faint sparkle left of the fantasy that you will rise above this and realize how precious my love is to you.

With everything that I am; with everything that I will become; with all of my heart... I love you. I promised I would spend the rest of my life just to make you happy, to ensure a constant smile and to never abandon you. I want nothing from you, but your love in return. And I promise, there will never be anyone else quite like me or who loves you as much as I always will.

I just simply, love you.