The dark cloud that looms overhead with a constant downpour of disappointment and heartbreak has become my story.
The love, success and happiness I so desire seems to slip through my finger tips.
Unable to grasp and hold on, I, again, find the rain pouring down.
As I look around at my friends, aquaintances and those who I knew in the past they all seem to be sucessful and/or happily married and/or living poolside baking in the sun.
I allow myself to pathetically sit on my pitty pot and wonder, what have I done to deserve such despair?
There have been moments of glee, where it seems the sun peeks through the grey sky just for a moment, but disappears just as swiftly as it came.
Back to square one.
I might as well live on square one. It seems I'm always trying to start over; start my relationship over; start my career over. Starting over with the same variables and ending with the same answer I have gotton ten thousand times before.
The longer the years drag on, the more the hope dissipates and the more vulnerable and desperate I become for my day to live poolside and bake in the sun.
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Ever thought about seeing a Physchologist love? Not the whacky mental Physchiatrist ones... the other ones that can help you re-train your thinking? There are obviously some sub conscious reasons why you feel the way you do, think the way you think etc. Maybe all you need to do is learn to be more positive?
Easier said than done... I'm exactly like you hey lol fucking pessimistic negative cunt I am. I'm thinking about going to one myself! No wonder i'm such a bitch hahahahah love my mushy =)
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